Realizing Parental Inadequacies

by Anne
(U.S.)

Realizing Parental Inadequacies

My daughter is 4 months old, and the most precious thing I've ever seen. She is the best baby; she smiles all the time, and hardly ever fusses.

Last night, my husband brought my daughter to bed because I had too much to drink. During the night, my daughter rolled off of the bed and onto the floor. Our bed is only two mattresses on the floor, so it wasn't very high. The worst part about it all is that my husband couldn't get me to wake up. I didn't even help comfort her.

I acted so irresponsibly that it makes me sick to think about. I never want to let her get hurt again. I'm not delusional, I know she will scrape knees, bump her head, etc. but last night was a catastrophic blow to my self-confidence as a parent. She really didn't even get hurt, to look at her you wouldn't be able to tell anything happened.

Since I can't take it back, I vow to make it a learning experience. I love her more than anything, and I will never take her safety for granted.