Molestation and Sisters in pain

Your story just described my life! The only differences are my father died a few years ago and I'm 34. i don't want to feel this way when I'm 54! I didn't do anything to deserve this. No one should ever know what this feels like! I want so much to be happy and loved, but I never have been. My whole life I've been a play thing. It's not what I want.

I want to be loved, but I don't know how! I was told I was only good for one thing. I know that's not true and I take pride in myself and my accomplishments, but intimately I only know to be agreeable and do what I'm told. I do everything to please them in the hopes they'll love me just like when I was little. In the end I'm alone and disgraced!