Forgotten Rape

I was fully convinced that I had been sexually abused, but for the longest time couldn't remember it. It took me about 4 years to recall the memory of the forgotten rape. My mother performed an enema on me when I was about 13 or 14. It took coercion, and it was definitely rape, even if my mother didn't realize it.

Rape is strictly defined by what occurred (nothing to do with emotions or intentions). I struggle every day because I have to live and socialize with my mother. I've never heard of such a thing! Even the counselor doesn't see anything wrong with me living with my rapist because "I'm old enough to prevent it from happening again.".

I'll restate my everyday situation: "I live with the person who raped me, who is perceived by others to be harmless, and I'm expected to interact with this person for the sake of family." If you ask me, it's continual psychological abuse. Harmless, my eye!