Did I write that?

I started crying reading 'adolescense at 59', not out of sadness, but out of joy (for lack of a better word) that I am not crazy and that there are others who can truly understand what I'm going through (and I have NEVER felt understood by others so this is a big deal to me). I am a bit younger (mid 30's) but have been very successful in my educational and professional pursuits. However, a few months ago I began recalling some early sexual trauma I had repressed. It has been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. I am also experiencing a variety of somatic symptoms which is highly unusual for me. I very recently had to go on a leave of absence at work because of symptoms. I was hoping to avoid that but I work in the mental field and my work itself was beginning to trigger many emotions. The fact we made it this far w/so many successes speaks to our strengths, but for the time being I am trying to allow myself to experience some feelings of weakness... And that is a difficult thing to do as you very well know. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish no one had to go through this. But it does give me some much needed comfort and hope to know I am not alone.

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Apr 04, 2012
this is exactly how i feel
by: david bell

hello i have read these comments and it has opened me up to getting to the problems i am experiencing like what you have gone through
i am at the early stages of trying to deal with my problems and i just dont know where to start
i feel like i just want to rid all my hurt and be that boy that i never was
i know its going to be painful because by all accounts i will need lots of support
i just hope my partner will be strong enough for me to support me through this
my stomach is churning because at long last i am ready to rid the pain of hurt that is inside
if anybody can tell me where i begin - then please tell me as i am absolutely petrified inside to let all that pain out - thank you for letting me into your lives

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