by rita m
My father sexually abused me when I was fourteen years old, he came back the next day to do it again. I split into another world and lived in a fantasy for twenty eight years. I thought i was the other child in the daydreams, and can only feel if the girl in the daydreams felt. The girl's name in the daydreams is mana. My mother abused me emotionally, verbally and physically, she was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.
I am 42 years old now, have gone through two divorces to men who scammed me. I am diagnosed with dissociative disorder not otherwise specified. I hate and hate but cant express accept in my daydreams. I want to write a letter to my father but I am scared to. I need help.